My twenties are rapidly coming to an end. My uterus has continued to remain unwilling to corporate with any of our efforts to grow a family without medical help. After what seems like an eternity of trying on our own we turned to some skilled hands for fertility treatments. Last August I began a fertility type treatment known as femara. (To make this post bearable we will just leave it at IT DIDN’T WORK FOR ME)
On March 31st I finished my first round of Clomid. I read tons of great reviews of ladies suffering from PCOS “falling” pregnant on the first try. I was ready to start painting a nursery after reading so many success stories. I even prematurely bought some cute baby clothes. What I wasn’t prepared for was the 5 days of intense side effects. While this round of Clomid did not work for us I’d like to share those 5 days of side effects.
If you are going through this journey just know you AREN’T ALONE.
11:45PM- I Took my first dose of Clomid. I took the pills late so I could hopefully sleep through side effects. I ended up staying up super late so I could be sure to record any
possible side effects I may end up experiencing. At this point I am officially my mothers child.
3:30AM – Not dead – Can officially sleep
6:30AM- Wide awake, Drank 30 oz water, horrible awkward right shoulder pain- going
back to sleep
7:30AM- No chance of sleep. Drank a shake and did a brisk 2 miles on the elliptical.
I am kicking clomid’s ass.
Feeling ok today – Clomid is not that bad – I can totally handle a dull headache
6PM- Why are my eyes blurry? WTF why are my eyes blurry
11:45PM – Took second dose of Clomid. Took Benadryl and straight to bed.
8AM- Headache from Hell. Migraine pills should help this. Pop 2 migraine pills.
9AM- Eyes are burning and blurry.
10AM- Why hasn’t this excedrin kicked in yet?
1PM- thoroughly read the caution label on said excedrin bottle took 2 more.
4PM- Sharp pain right shoulder and collar bone, stomach feels like we are driving really
fast going up and down hills. Waves of nausea. Waves of flippin’ nausea
8PM- I may have to check my liver into rehab after this round of clomid
This headache has not backed down-
I should write a letter to the manufacturer of these “migraine pills” about the
ineffectiveness of their product to alleviate a headache.
10PM- My aloe plant died and I cried ridiculously
10:20PM dose 3 taken
How is one supposed to procreate in this state of mind?
12:30AM- My skin is crawling- my bones feel like they are on fire. My dog must sense
my pain and is trying to cuddle.
Heartburn- So much heartburn
1AM- Please don’t puke, please don’t puke
2AM- Why can’t I sleep.
4AM – sent a lengthy email to complain about the ineffectiveness of excedrin
7AM- I am still awake. Did i not off at all last night?
9AM- Plain tylenol today
11AM – This crap doesn’t work either
3PM- Struggled through a 3.6 mile run. Take that Clomid.
7PM- Still have a headache-
I hate everyone and everything today.
Praise be. Today is the last day
Last dose taken at 10PM
I kept these notes in my iPhone notes section and by days 4 and 5 I was so miserable I wasn’t even keeping great tabs. All I know is one day I will get to tell a story of how much I loved a little soul that hadn’t even been created yet. And how this heartbreaking journey will be worth every second.
*Note Round 1 of Clomid did NOT work for us. I finished the 5th and last dose on March 31st- Tomorrow, April 24th I go for scans to check for hyper stimulation and we will chat about further options.*